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[arkster]

What's the first time you ever killed off a character?

One of yours, I mean, one you'd petted and fed and watered and seen grow. One who'd surprised you, multiple times. One you'd grown to love and see yourself in, and - more gratifyingly - see all the ways you're different and always will be. One you'd enjoyed knowing, in all his or her or its imperfect rambling ways.

I'm two martinis in and I don't know how to feel.

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[soysauce.livejournal.com]

UM. That'd have to be Zuko from the ATLA. Azula killed him... and it was dramatic and hilarious.

[hezul.livejournal.com]

I killed off one of my OCs in a game in....crap, must've been in 2006? He was one of my favorites, had ranked pretty high in a gamewide poll of favorites, I loved playing him and I'd had him since the day after the game started (we'd been going for about nine months when I offed him, IIRC).

It was a pretty dark game, lots of epic battles and characters killing each other off, and he was by no means the first one to go. But I very deliberately gave him a stupid pointless death instead of an awesome epic one; he figured out the mind game another character was pulling on his team, so the other character (who...actually had fighting skills; my guy was pretty much his team's smart guy but crap in a fight) just killed him in his own apartment when nobody was else there. He never got a chance to get any kind of word out about what he'd figured out.

I cried when we wrote the log and a lot of the other players were like DAMN YOU SAM ;_: when we posted it, and while some characters just kind of died and never got mentioned again, he kept coming up and his teammates really did a lot with it, which made me feel amazingly warm and fuzzy even though I felt like a total jerk for killing him off.

I still miss playing him even today, not gonna lie.

[rawri.livejournal.com]

Ah, man, so long ago. In the distant past. Kazu from AG got meat-chopped into a box by X. Left... some very nice, long-lasting trauma, if I remember right. Though the very very first time a character of mine ever perished was all the way back in Furcadia, when I was a wee twelve-year-old, messing with bad lion OCs and big old college kids who put me back in my place.

What about you, Lina?

[boojums-snark.livejournal.com]

I don't think I ever have, if I'm honest o.0

And I don't think I could either. Not even knowing that in Paradisa he could come back 2 weeks later. I'd be heartbroken...and honestly, wouldn't want to put his cast-mates through that.

BACK OFF DAN DIDIO B|

[bamboozle.livejournal.com]

... You know, I don't think I ever--

Oh. When I dropped Kiba I put him off for killing. I kind of regretted it afterward, too, since it didn't really serve any purpose other than deathfodder for the killers in Rive, and I dropped him when I was feeling down, so the prospect of bringing him back was then like "ahhh but he'd have to be restarted," which was sort of a bummer.

Goodness, that was a bit anticlimactic. Who did you kill off?

[pimpstergust.livejournal.com]

I play tabletop. I have my characters killed for me. There are a couple I am still not sure I am cool with them dying, even years later. Most are fine, but there are one or two...

[rizumcbutt.livejournal.com]

I killed Jan off at another game once. He'd been there 9 months, and had lost... well, less friends than he's lost at Riv now, but the death toll was climbing. He grabbed the one person left he liked, carefully put her down (her player was dropping too), and then went on a delighted NPC killing spree in the cafeteria so the heroes would gang up and kill him. It was bittersweet, but I had no regrets right up until I started the log and his new roommate was like WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS?? DDD: and tried to protect him, and then I felt not a little bad.

There's an end to every story, right? Unless, of course, said character pops up again in private musebox adventures involving the Totally Awesome Boat Team Justice Group...